Mixed Emotions

We just sold our house today. There's a deep sadness that comes with closing one chapter of your life and moving on to the next. The last few years have definitely not been easy ones for us. But they have been character building and life changing for us. It's hard to leave a place that is very comfortable and beautiful. I know that in the grand scheme of things my house was just that....a house and not my home, b/c a home is where your memories are made and where you and your family are, wherever that may be. As a stay at home mom, who's life revolves around and in her home it's a very tangible thing that is hard to hand over to someone else. It feels wrong and is terribly heartbreaking. I have to remind myself daily to keep things in perspective, which is very hard to do when you are going through a difficult journey, but at the same time something that must be done in order to move on.

People keep telling me that God has great things in store for us and that He's in control. I believe this with my mind, but my heart has trouble following. I have to tell myself each day that God IS good and He DOES good and that will never change. I must never forget this otherwise I've missed it completely. I have to trust the words of my friends and hold tight to my faith, even when it is small.

I thought it very ironic this week that Megan's memory verse was Ps 40:1-3 which says "I was patient while I waited for the Lord. He turned to me and heard my cry for help. I was sliding down into the pit of death, and he pulled me out. He brought me up out of the mud and dirt. He set my feet on a rock. He gave me a firm place to stand on. He gave me a new song to sing. It is a hymn of praise to our God. Many people will see what he has done and will worship him. They will put their trust in the Lord."

That's my prayer today, that the Lord would give me a new song to sing and that I wouldn't look back to what I've lost but look ahead and run the race that is set before me!
In time I will look back on this day and thank Him for how He has so graciously brought me through and I'm sure I will again be in awe of how truly great and awesome He is for all He has done! May He use this time in my life to strengthen me so I may be an encouragement and comfort to someone else who is just as hurting and broken as I am today.
To God be the glory both NOW and always!~